MY BIRTHDAY/I'M 40 YAW!!

          It's my BIRTHDAY and I can proudly say I feel like I'm 20 emotionally. I feel completely like my life has start a new beginning. Honestly, I felt this way during the past year. I totally understand myself better than ever now that I am older. I think in life especially when we are younger like our teen years and in our twenty's we are trying to figure out things. I know that when I was in my teen years I knew that I was ready for a career but I was afraid to take a step forward to achieve my career of choice. After school I knew I wanted to work and get paid but I didn't know what I wanted to do. I thought about college and talk to many counselors from different colleges but I was so tired after high school. I was tired of all the drama from school and I wanted a break from school point blank. A break from school was not a year thing or not even a two year thing, the break lasted for about eleven years. Although I didn't go straight to college I got a job and face the world. I struggled with jobs but yet I got paid and I was happy to have my name on a pay check that was for my own use. I was emotionally abused at different places of employment but I remained employed because I wanted/needed to be doing something in life.

          My life as I have said many times have been difficult in the society but all I have been through emotionally has made me strong. I wouldn't change my past for nothing in the world because I am who I am because of all the tough s... I had to face day to day. I feel so complete and totally successful even though I am not where I would like to be. I have jumped some hurdles and conquer some fears and that in my opinion is an achievement. I am doing things now that eleven years ago I wouldn't attempt to try because of the stress I was enduring at the time. I feel less stress and ready to achieve many more things outside of emotional strength. I am ready to advance my self educated abilities to another level. I got what it takes but taking what I have to offer is always a big hill climb but you know that is just how it is. No pressure here I'm motivated and encouraged to get from A to Z.

          I am forty years old and I have GOD/JESUS in my life. I have a beautiful thirteen years old daughter and my family. All of whom is very special to me and all is my first love. I am rejoicing to see another year and I thank GOD for all HE has done for me. All the opportunities and offers given to me is a blessing. I am truly living my life the way my life should have been at the age of twenty. GOD hears our prayers and what we ask of we shall receive if we believe. I prayed for many years and when I say years I mean since I was a child. GOD and my Mama taught me how to pray. I can say to all who reads this blog that every prayer is   heard. I have prayed for things, GOD heard my prayers, and even my cry. I am forty and I have another  chance to do all that I want to do in this lifetime. I am so motivated and so thankful to be able to feel the way I feel. I'm excited for the New Year and all that GOD has planned for my life. I LOVE YOU ALL and keep your dreams alive and never give up on your goals. Believe in yourself and let GOD lead your Life to bigger and better things. GOD LOVES YOU no matter what and GOD says," COME AS YOU ARE". There is no secret with GOD and HE knows all things. Always remember to never be ashamed of whatever the circumstance may be,  just keep your head toward HEAVEN and watch GOD create a BEAUTIFUL FUTURE for you who believes. I THANK GOD for my BIRTHDAY for HE CREATED ME and that is the ultimate BLESSING.